Enter Reaper

It was a long walk to the taxi stand.

It was a long walk to the taxi stand. Dean had just been through an emotional revolution which had ended in rejection. He finally understood what she meant about the emptiness and loneliness of unrequited feelings. Chewing his bottom lip as he waited for a cab, he devised a plan. When the battered Chevrolet pulled beside the curb, Dean was convinced what he would do next.

~~~~~

The ops room was a hive of activity. Stephen R. Paulston, Reaper to his friends and colleagues, stood viewing the technicians from the window of his office overlooking the ops floor. Coffee in hand, he began to pace before the window, deeply concentrating. The telephone startled him when it rang.

The speaker on the telephone crackled with static before the sargeant’s voice burst through. “Call for you on line two Reaper, somebody named Dean.”

Paulston’s grip on the coffee mug tightened. Furrows gouged his brow as a whispered stream of obscenities passed through clenched teeth. The ops center was momentarily hushed and appeared frozen in time as Reaper’s attention turned. Paulston strode quickly across the room, his heavy footsteps echoing in the sudden silence.

“Dean, where the hell are you,” he demanded. “It’s nearly nineteen-hundred, you were supposed to be here two damn hours ago!”

“It’s a long story, Reaper. I’ll fill you in once we get out of this traffic mess. Some kind of accident ahead of us. Looks like a bad one too.” Reaper skeptically eyed his terminal screen, but raised an eyebrow when he saw the red X on the traffic map signifying the place of the accident he knew was in Dean’s path.

“It had better be good!” Reaper pushed the button beside the blinking line button. As he leaned back in the chair, he decided against reconnaissance before Dean’s arrival. A decision he knew he would regret. The internal tension grew, and he changed his mind.

Paulston flicked the button on the phone…

Paulston flicked the button on the telephone to get another outside line.  At the other end, still no answer.  “Dammit, Matthews, where are you?”

Dean Cranston, Tara Miller and Bevan Matthews were simply the best students Stephen Paulson had ever encountered at the Academy. Each on their own was stellar, but put the three of them together, and the chemistry was magical. They read each others thoughts, always on target, always one step ahead. They were loyal, a unit. Every exercise they attempted they aced. He felt privileged to be able to mentor them.

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Dean took a deep breath knowing Reaper was unhappy about the situation, but what could he do? He couldn’t leave Tara. He had to see her one more time. Now, he was having second thoughts as the cabby turned and said, “You might not want to look at this.”

Dean was far away and did not instantly register the cabby’s words. He couldn’t help thinking about Tara, try as he might.  A smirk of a grin lit his eyes. He knew it was not over because Tara was not always good at hiding her feelings.  With renewed hope and anticipation, he glanced out the window as the paramedics pulled a lifeless, charred body out of the once beautiful Porsche.  It looked strangely familiar. Without realizing the words were audible, Dean’s words trailed away. “Bevan has a black Porsche.”

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The phone once again broke Paulston’s reverie. He glanced over as an agent answered, then gave a start in response to the message. The young officer’s eyes flicked to Paulston, and he murmured a short reply into the receiver before it slipped from his fingers back into the cradle.

Standing in the door to Reaper’s office, “Sir, I’m afraid I have some bad news,” the agent stammered, approaching slowly. “It’s Matthews, sir.”

Across town, another phone rang…in Tara Miller’s apartment.

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Tara wandered in from the balcony. She was preoccupied with the thought of letting go of Dean, permanently. The telephone rang as she passed the ancient answering machine she should have discarded years ago. An uneasiness came over her. Dean’s cell phone number blinked on the face of the telephone.

“Which part of no did you not understand?” rasped through the mouthpiece into Dean’s ear.

“Tara, have you seen Bevan today?” Dean was still fumbling with how he was going to break this to her. He had turned the cabby back toward her apartment.

“And what business of that would be yours?” Her instinct was to hang up the telephone at the audacity in his assumption she would have to have another man to discard him.

“Tara, listen to me and forget how much you hate me for a few minutes!” He tried to pull himself together, so she wouldn’t pick up the urgency and trepidation in his voice. “This isn’t about us. It’s about Bevan. I’ll be back at your place in five minutes. It’s not good news.”

Tara was still wising up as she slowly sat on the couch, confused and perplexed. Why was he coming back? Is this really about Bevan or is Dean just making excuses so he can catch me at a weak moment? Jumping up from the couch she defiantly blurted out to her cat, Chloe, “I’ve got news for him. He needs to go back to his wife and precious assignment once and for all and leave me the hell alone!”

Old Chevrolet Taxi Cab

…as the cab pulled up in the driveway.

She was hoping Dean would arrive soon, while she still had the gumption and fortitude to throw him out. She prayed she would not weaken again just as the cab pulled up in the driveway.

When the gentle rap at the door came, all of her anger dissolved into a puddle of doubt. She heard no confidence in the knock, so uncharacteristic of the cavalier Dean so aptly embodied.

Tentatively, she turned the lock and opened the door in what seemed like slow motion. Dean had never had an expression like the one twisted on his face. He looked years older than when he had left moments before.

The uneasiness grew into the heaviness of fear in her chest. A single whisper escaped her lips. “How?”

Dean’s shoulders slumped. She knew. She had always been quick to figure things out, realize what was going on. Leaning heavily against the doorframe, Dean sighed and buried his face in his hands.

The car was totaled,…

“I saw his car, Tara. On the side of the road, not far from here. It…”  He met her gaze, a blank expression he did not expect. A heavy sigh came before he went on, “The car was totaled, wrapped around a light pole.” Dean’s voice hitched, and his hands balled into fists, as if he could fight away the grief.

Instinct kicked into overdrive as she gently lifted him away from the door frame and into the foyer, pushing the door closed with her foot. Fists became grasping hands. He held her as though she would slip through his arms.

The hurricane of questions in Tara’s head was ferocious. Dean was hoarsely speaking before she realized they had not stayed contained in her mind.

“Tara, I realized that I may not ever come back. How could I leave you the way that I did? You would have spent the rest of your life thinking that I was an uncaring, selfish jackass.” Gripping her arms, he pushed her to look directly into her startled eyes. “Tara, I love you. Don’t let me screw it up this time.”

Just as quickly, he let her go and retreated to the couch. He slumped, head returning to his hands.

Is this the same man? Tara realized her heart was aching both for the loss of Bevan and for Dean’s lost demeanor. He had changed, but it would not change her resolve.

She went to him. Resting her hand on his knee, she asked quietly, “Does Reaper know?”

“Probably.  You know he’s always one step ahead of us.  He knows our thoughts before we do. I suppose I should call him.”  Chloe jumped up on Dean’s lap, happy her two favorite people were back together again.  Chloe knew it, but Dean and Tara were still feeling their way, both unaware they were giving way to fate.  Fate would have her way with them.

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And the loser is…

Yesterday, we discussed thanatophobia. Fear of death is classified as a fear of an event. Can you think of another event people commonly fear?

  • Mathis WeddingWar
  • Wedding
  • Funeral
  • Public speaking
  • Job loss
  • Court appearance
  • Evaluation/ examination
  • Doctor/dentist visit
None of these top the list for fear of an event.

Failure

Arguably, some of the event fears include the fear of failure. Nothing is worse than the dream of giving a speech in the buff or thinking your job evaluation will end in termination. However, the pervasive fear of failure is riddled with anxiety for more people than any of the other event fears.

Amygdala

Brain Chemistry

The amygdala is the part of the brain that sends signals to the hormone producing endocrine system telling them to produce the chemicals associated with the fight or flight survival instinct. From adrenaline to dopamine, hormones rule the human reflex to anxiety. Keeping the hormones at a healthy level is imperative.

Why?

The delicate chemical balance to keep the brain from such crippling psychiatric disorders as depression and paranoia is not as simple as measuring flour to make cookies. When learned behavior is added to the mix, the balance can be thrown so far out of kilter keeping one’s wits is impossible.

Learned or Instinct

Run. Hide. Live.

Fear is a combination of instinct and learned behavior. The instinctual part of fear comes from the theory of natural selection. The humans who learned to fear and avoid the sabre-toothed tiger were the ones who survived. They taught their friends and family how to avoid or kill the beast.

Humans generate natural fear reflexes after they are subjected to trauma or dangerous circumstances. When you fall from a tree, you may become fearful of heights. Once burned, you will appreciate the danger of fire whether you fear it or not.

Phobias are born when the appreciation turns into irrational fear, like when you assign fire the human will to stalk you in your sleep or plot to burn your business.

Pieces Parts

The fear of failure is a learned response. The most prevalent variations of the fear of failure are decreased self-worth, fear of upsetting important people and uncertainty about outcomes. Studies continue to show, fear of failure leads to procrastination and is self-fulfilling.

The Big P

Procrastination is often a side effect of the fear of failure. We put off things we should do because we fear they will turn out badly (uncertainty of future). In other cases, we procrastinate to put off the failure for as long as possible (decreased self-worth). Lastly, we try to preserve others’ opinions of us by accepting the reprisal for failing to do something because it is ultimately less painful than what we perceive the failure to be (upset peers).

Flunk it before you take it.

You were right.

The last example shows how self-fulfilling the fear of failure can be. Another example is test anxiety. When faced with an examination, rather than committing full attention to preparation for the test, precious energy and emotional capital is spent worrying about failing the test. Ill-prepared, test failure is imminent.

Track Record

Past failure is not predictive of future failure. The single exception is the colloquial definition of insanity: Doing the same thing over and over expecting a different result. Adaptability is the human characteristic which belies the fear of failure. When you are willing to try a different, more effective tack, chance of failure decreases.

This is poignantly true of failed relationships. Just because you have been through a break up or divorce is no reason to fear failing at a subsequent relationship. As long as you recognize your part in the break up, you can change your future behavior to increase your chances of success.

Competence

Brain exercise conquers fear of failure. Those willing to engage the same behaviors expecting a different result are not showing adequate competence to break the cycle of failure and are blaming their track record for the irrational fear.

Choose a new path.

Those willing to engage new behaviors, learn new techniques and adapt to situations are the ones who find success in the new methods. Those willing to recognize the fear and approach situations from a different perspective overcome the fear.

Sticktoitiveness

As long as you are willing to try and try something different when you do fail, sticking to the problem will result in success. Success inherently increases self-worth and reduces the uncertainty of future attempts.

Which fear of failure have you seen most often in your life? How have you seen self-fulfilling fear of failure? Have you overcome your fear of failure? Can you name a technique of overcoming the fear of failure?


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Writer’s Spotlight: Robin Badillo

Robin Badillo came into the M3 Coffee Shop with an armload of books. Red grabbed the prolific, and very funny, writer to nail her down on what drives her to create and how she manages to get it all done.

M3: Tell the M3 readers what you agent sends out as your professional bio clip.

Robin Badillo ~ Midnight Beckoning

RB: Robin Badillo is a multi-tasking mother of four and new author from deep in the heart of Texas. Her novels stretch across genre lines, covering everything from contemporary hometown-themed stories to thrilling paranormal romances.

M3: Who is it you want to thank before we get to the nitty gritty?

RB: I owe a great deal to my best friend, Kim Esparza. She believed in me and was just as passionate about my writing as I was. She introduced me to the right people and did a lot of research while I spent my time writing. Without her, this trip wouldn’t have been near as much fun.

M3: It is best to have a friend along the way to help open doors. How is it you got started in the publishing industry?

RB: My entrance into the world as an author wasn’t filled with instant glitz and glory. In fact, it may be better categorized as uneventful. I started where most writers do, at the bottom and scratched and clawed my way up. I’ve only managed a foot or two in elevation, but the view is already pretty darn nice. Considering my profound fear of heights, making it this far has been a miracle.

M3: Have you been tuned into the Fear Series? Does that play into what advice you would give newbies to the business?

RB: When asked this question in the past, I’ve suggested for new writers to toughen up their skin. The publishing world can be rough and it doesn’t become easier after your published because painful rejections are replaced by the inevitable bad review. Now though, I can’t stress enough the importance of never giving up. Adversity should just be seen as a stepping stone, taking you to wherever you want to go.

M3: That is excellent advice. In never giving up, how do you make time for all the writing you do?

RB: In the beginning, creating worlds and characters was done with a whirlwind of enthusiasm and energy. I could easily write five thousand words a day, so as you can imagine, I practically slept with my laptop. Time was a valuable commodity and I did my best to write while still trying to spend quality time with my kids. Fortunately, they haven’t totally disowned me because of the neglect.

M3: I am sure you have made some acquaintances and friends along the way. What have you to say of your colleagues?

RB: I must say that I have met some truly awesome authors on this journey and I have discovered that writers are a tight nit group who rally around and support each other’s successes like no other breed of people I have ever encountered. One would be hard pressed to find another group of professionals who truly rejoice your successes and aren’t afraid to cry with you when things go south. I can’t say enough good things about them.

M3: So, do you have something exciting in the works at the moment?

RB: At the moment, I enjoying a brief hiatus. After releasing eight full-length novels and two novellas in the span of fourteen months, I’m worn out and the old muse needs a breather. I do have a couple of works in progress that I dabble with from time to time, but I’m in no hurry. They should hit the digital ebook world sometime in 2012.

M3: Everyone truly needs a break now and then. Should the M3 Readers care if you have a day job?

RB: Probably not, but since most readers like to know about the authors of the books they read, it’s always nice to share the personal details. I write full at the moment, so my “day job” is all about being a writer and mom. Thrilling stuff, I know.

M3: You are preaching to the choir! Has the dismal state of the economy changed the way you handle things as an author?

Midnight Beckoning

RB: The economy has an impact on everyone, writers included. The biggest way it’s changed the way I do business is with promotional ventures. Most authors must purchase their own promotional items, or swag, if you will. This means that those fliers, refrigerator magnets and postcards you may possess depicting your favorite book, was probably paid for by the author. We remedy this by doing what most folks do, look for bargains and do some rather clever budgeting.

M3: Still a lot of hoops for authors to jump through, no matter the money. Do you have a particular bone to pick with the industry?

RB: I don’t necessarily have a bone to pick with the industry, per se, but it would sure be nice to see more attention paid to authors who actually write their own books, as opposed to celebrities making the top ten best seller’s list just because they’re famous. If any celebrities should write a memoir, it should be someone with a true tale to tell like Regis Philbin or other iconic figures, after so many years in show business, not Snookie from the Jersey Shore. It’s an insult to serious writers and readers alike.

M3: I agree wholeheartedly. Considering the state of the Best Sellers List, do you think the traditional industry looks at self-published material as inferior?

RB: Yes, I do. I’m not sure how long that will last though, considering ebooks were at the bottom just a couple of years ago. Times, they are a changin’!

M3: I think it is for the best. Let’s talk about your writing. What makes this work close to your heart?

RB: Writing is close to my heart because it allows me to express my love of romance and happy endings on a daily basis. It also provides an avenue to tackle everyday issues in my story lines and has even allowed me to explore important issues such as autism, depression, alcoholism and single parenting. Issues common people are faced with all the time, no matter who they are or where they are from.

M3: What makes this type of work different from other fields?

RB: This field is different because most people get to leave their work at the office, writers usually work at home and often times live, eat, drink and sleep with their books. Saying writing isn’t work is like telling a stay-at-home-mom she doesn’t have a real job.

M3: Be your own best ad agent. Tell the M3 Readers in fifteen words or less why they should by Midnight Beckoning.

RB: You should buy my book because: I’m just a regular gal who turned the voices in my head into romantic stories.

M3: I love it, Robin. Secret time. What is the one thing you certainly do not want me to share with the M3 Readers?

RB: I hope you don’t tell the readers that I am really a Victoria’s Secret lingerie model and that all of the heroines in my books are based on my modeling colleagues. They would never guess who’s who, and it’s really a hush hush secret anyway.

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Darling M3 Readers,

Please take a few moments to check out Robin Badillo, her many wonderful books and her newest title, Midnight Beckoning. Visit Robin’s blog to learn more about the author and her books.

Thank you, once again, for your fantastic support of the talented M3 Coffee Shoppe authors. When you tweet and +1 this post, please use the hashtags #authors, #books and #WW.

Red.
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Not So Fast

“Oh, I’ll leave, when I have said all I need to say.” Dean gently, but firmly took the doorknob and closed the door. He and Tara were face-to-face, barely an inch of space between their noses. Tara took a deep breath as she leaned back to increase her comfort zone.

I know you think I am Satan…

Dean kept his tone low and even. “I know you think I am Satan in spades, Tara. And I am sorry that I bailed on you when our relationship and the assignment started going at warp speed. It was just too convenient for me to let nature take its course when I was told to relocate. Besides, I was not the only drama queen, if I recall correctly.”

Tara’s defensive hackles stood on end. “And what, precisely, does that mean?” She stepped back from him so she could cross her arms over her chest in body language that screamed, I am not letting you do this again. It was not enough to make her feel better armored.

Dean began scrambling to back up his sucker punch, but to no avail. Tara was already stalking away. His words would fall on deaf ears, again.

She spun on one heel and hissed, “Damn you, I was willing to give you everything. You weren’t, aren’t ready to commit to anything but you tour du jour. And you take every one that comes down the pike. I need more stability than that.”

Tara turned to face the window.

Tara turned to face the window. She held her arms tightly enough her knuckles whitened. Angry tears streamed silently down her face. Her mind was a tumult of wishes unfulfilled and fantasies fulfilled. She knew the latter could never replace the former.

Dean knew his morass was deeper than he first expected. He had known she cared, but did not understand the concept of love. Relationships had always been just another part of the job.

In that moment, something inside Dean snapped. The dam which had held his emotions in immobility burst. He tried to draw in a breath to speak, but could not get the air to pass his swelling heart. All he could do was wrap his arms around her from behind and nestle his face in her neck.

He felt her melt into his embrace. “I’m truly sorry.”

Before he realized he had spoken those three words, four more tumbled out behind them: “I love you, too.”

For a moment, Tara lost herself in his embrace. The feel of his arms around her, his body so solid and warm against hers, the scent of him… Memories of times long past filled her mind, swept over her like a breaking wave threatening to swallow her up entirely.

But his words still echoing in her ear pulled her back to reality, and slowly she pushed away. His eyes met hers, questioning and confused. He seemed so helpless, as she had never seen him before, almost childlike.

“You think that would make things okay between us, Dean?” She spoke softly, but confidently. “I loved you Dean, I still do. But too much has happened, too much damage has been done. You can’t just come back here, say you love me and have it be the way it used to be. We can’t go back. I’m not even sure I’d want to,” she said, stepping back further. “I can’t do this. Not right now. I think you’d better go.”

Dean realized maybe retreat was a good idea. He needed to comprehend what had just happened. Everything he had denied for his adult life had just flooded into the forefront, without his beckoning and in front of the one person who could use it against him.

He silently hung his head and retrieved his jacket from the floor. As he slid his arms into it, he looked at Tara. Somehow, from across the foyer, she seemed small and very far away. Her eyes were soft. He had seen that look of melancholy before. That time it was at his hands as well.

I promise to call before I come back…

“I promise to call before I come back, but know that I am going to come back. I may never have meant that before, but today, you can set your watch by it.” His voice held a forlorn timbre. She turned her face away from him just as the thought occurred to him he should kiss her forehead again.

Dean turned to leave with a sinking feeling of unfulfilled purpose, yet could not identify the real reason he had come today. When the door closed behind him, he knew that he had meant all of the things he had said and that he would be back. A flicker of hope lightened his path that she would allow him to rectify some of his many wrongs.

Tara sank back against the door as she closed it behind him, exhausted by the exchange. Feelings which should have turned to dust long ago had been dredged up, and the ache, at once familiar and unwelcome, assailed her.

She shook her head in an attempt to scatter the thoughts. Later, she told herself. I’ll deal with this later. Right now, I have work to do.

Tara strode back into the bedroom, content she could shake the achy feelings and the fear her heart would open to allow the chance for hurt again. With an intent purpose, she stuffed all of the journals back into their box and returned them to the shelf. She looked at her work, unsatisfied.

The light inside her brain came on and a genuine smile crossed her face. In the bottom drawer of her chest of drawers was a sweater Dean absolutely despised. She retrieved it and masked the box of journals with it. What do you know? A perfect fit! With the newly found lightheartedness, Tara closed the closet door and went to the linen closet in search of a garbage bag and dusting supplies.

…before she carried the garbage bag out…

In a moment of self-doubt before she carried the garbage bag out, she wondered if she really wanted to throw away all of her memories. Tara’s heart and soul were practically mapped out on the pages of her journals. She just could not bring herself to toss out her journals.

Sinking to her knees, Tara cried silently while pulling the bag away. She removed the sweater and clutched the box close to her chest. If she were to throw away her journals, it would be because she was ready to close the chapters of her life. Dean was a man, and there are other men. She gently set her box on the closet shelf and put Dean’s sweater back in the bag.

Well, it’s not like he’s going to miss it. Tara put the garbage bag in the trash can. Her heart still ached though, and she felt emptier now more than ever before. Tara stepped outside onto the porch and let the cool October breeze sweep the tears off her face.

It was so peaceful after the storm.

The sky was red, blue, purple, orange and yellow. It was so peaceful after the storm. Yet, the serenity of her setting did not quell the battle in her heart. The battle she fought was between what she thought she wanted and the truth. With his sudden revelation, how could she possibly fight or prevent the truth?

Sitting down in one of the rockers, she began to think. I wish things didn’t have to be this way, but all things happen for a reason right?  Tara tired to convince herself her heart would heal, but the truth was she had no faith nor any desire to believe. Dean was gone, that’s all that mattered.

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What a rush!

Tennis anyone?

Adrenaline junkies, thrill-seekers, nuts. These are just some of the words applied to those who partake in activities which raise the adrenaline level out of fear. Your run-of-the-mill adrenaline junkie is exploiting the body’s natural reflexes.

Opposites

This morning’s arachnophobes, thanatophobes and other fearful people are crippled by the adrenaline-producing fear. Thrill-seekers are not immune to fear, even if their behavior may appear to belie the fact. The difference is phobes become petrified, literally and physically, by the rush of chemicals. Thrill-seekers get a euphoria, not from the palpable fear itself, but in the survival of the event. Huh?

Chemistry & Biology

Adrenaline. You have heard it before. What is it? Adrenaline is a hormone and neurotransmitter. Part of the body’s natural fight or flight instinct, the adrenal glands pump out adrenaline (also called epinephrine).

Adrenaline makes the heart beat faster and pump harder. It dilates bronchioles, so your body can draw in more oxygen. It constricts blood vessels, causing less blood to flow to the brain and increasing the brain’s dopamine production, for better motor response.

Every body does it.

(Attention: Still the Grammar Nazi. Every body is not the same as  Everybody.)  The human brain signals the adrenal glands to produce adrenaline to give the body a physical and mental edge during both critical and exhilarating events. This is survival instinct.

Not everybody does it.

Circle back, Bob, I think we lost the skier.

Just some of the activities on the to-do (every day) list for the adrenaline junkie are:

  • Sky diving
  • Bungee jumping
  • Motocross/ BMX
  • Surfing
  • Rock climbing
  • Skate/snowboarding

Most of these activities, save the first two, can be done in a more relaxed atmosphere than the adrenaline junkie prefers. In their rawest forms, these activities are considered extreme sports.

Come here, Cuddles.

Other adrenaline-producing hobbies your average junkie would find fun are the sources for the average phobias.

  • Proximity to or taunting dangerous or venomous animals (big cats, bears, snakes)
  • Aerial activities (para-sailing, rappelling, stunt flying)
  • Speed related activities (boat or car racing, one-on-one sport racing)
  • Increased difficulty sports (black diamond skiing)

So, why do people like to scare themselves?

Art imitates life.

Some days it is the other way ’round, but for the average moviegoer, art is imitating life. We are seeking those images and accounts which we would like for ourselves, but cannot due to life’s circumstances. Yes, even in the case of horror films.

Horror and action films are an adrenaline-almost-junkie’s bread and butter. For the thrill-seeker who may not have the courage to overcome all the rational thought telling the desire This can kill you., cinema becomes the vicarious vehicle.

I want to watch.

Attire provided by your team.

Another near-junkie is a fan, as in truly short for fanatic. This die-hard is at every game, airing, event…holds season tickets every year, gets a team logo tattoo where everyone can see it, has a team logo credit card, decorates with official merchandise, gets frequent flyer miles for attending away games/events, prefers to be seen in official team wear, plans life events on team schedules, has a vanity plate inside a team holder, buys team-branded food and names children after better players.

It is all about the high.

The fear produces the chemicals which make the body acutely aware of surrounding, physically able to respond faster and awakens the senses. It is not really difficult to understand why people can get caught up into dangerous activities, or even watching dangerous activities, as a form of entertainment.

Admit it.

Nearly everyone can identify a time in their life where they engaged in behavior which was dangerous, either to themselves or others. Some of the mixed emotions about this behavior is the admission it was fun, enjoyable or exciting…or all three. Even when faced with the knowledge it is far more mature not to (like, enjoy, desire) doing these things, we still have the inner voice saying, You know that is so fun.

What thrill-seeking behavior have you engaged? Was it a fear activity? Was it just the idea of being caught? Are you a fanatic? Where is your adrenaline limit?


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